dailyrantingsofsmiles

2010-11-22T07:59:00.002+08:00

i'm blogging from the Hiltons at Waikiki. So far, this place is fabulous! the scenary, the people, the hotel. Enjoying every moment, but, im missing home too much, so im not hoping to have more days in HNL. maybe next time...

just went shopping around the area.. hmmm... no money, so didnt really enjoy it.. my colleagues are spending money like water, just buy and sign and buy and sign. lucky them...

im hungry, gonna go out and grab smth to eat now, byebye.

2010-11-15T11:11:00.002+08:00

im back from melbourne! but im flying off again today.. =(

2 days flew by so quickly! booooo....

graduation on thursday was emotional, but all our focus was on the flight on friday back home, everyone cant wait to get home. but for me, i was sick. i had fever through the flight from aus to sin, and had multiple episodes of fever throughout the night... slept only 2 hours and got up for my best friend's wedding! im her 'jie mei' so i had to 'test' the groom's love for her.. lol. hilarious much.. but den again, multiple episodes of fever throughout the day.. had some free time in the afternoon where i went to run some errands, alter my clothes, buy some necessities, with my fever... and den its back home to get ready for bestie's wedding banquet! yummy food!!! and my dearest BF looks super charming! hehe. but still having fever.. =( fever sucks. cuz i feel like fire under my skin and in my eyeballs. but super cold on the outside...

sunday was spent getting more errands done, and with NO fever!! =D and suddenly when i checked on the time, its 4pm.. =(((((

time really flies!! and there's so many things i didnt get to do with baby! we wanted to go bugis for a walk, go temple.. all these didnt get to do.. =(

and now, im alone, at home.. doing some packing, etc.. missing my dearest bb.. and now when im alone, i feel like time is a drag!!

SIGH. please let time pass faster and let the money start rolling in ! hehe..

ok, gtg.. time to continue packing!

2010-11-06T19:17:00.003+08:00

just had a long webcam conversation with dearest BF.. so much fun and i miss him badly..
there's no free wireless in the hotel and so i paid AUS$20/ for a 24hrs use..

im suppose to be studying, but had a very very bad headache just now. took a nap but it didnt help with the pain, so i ate my cup noodles (dinner) and popped 2 panadol.. now im feeling super super giddy and super super sleepy...'

major exam on monday, not good that im not studying... =/

i am looking forward to graduate and go home, but will only be having 2 days off before i leave for my first flight. my 2 days off is actually only one day cuz my bestie is getting married and im her jiemei, so, one whole day with my babe getting her ready for her big day.. =D
im just afraid i might be very tired..

ok, i'll update again if i can.. and photos to upload too! =D

2010-11-03T14:28:00.003+08:00

im blogging from the business centre in melbourne at holiday inn. im now in my 3rd week of training and getting quite exhausted. missing home and missing my dearest BF.

all the true colours of batchmates are showing and all the drama is unfolding. im not particularly affected by it, and the best part is, no body has got any idea who is being made as a joke due to their actions. LOL.

i have my own group of friends, and so i will just stick to my own alien group. if my alien group splits, den im fine being with myself. though it really can get a little lonely, i'd rather be alone den be influenced by the nonsense.

oh and yea, i failed my first practical. first time i fail my exam in this training school and it is very very disappointing. i so wanted to cry right after the exam but was holding my tears. =(

and to make things worse,
missing my baby quite badly, and missing all the non drama life that i used to have.
sometimes, i wonder ....

to my dearest BF if you are reading this, I MISS YOU !!! :*

2010-10-22T20:30:00.002+08:00

whew, finally got the time to blog.
time is really tight for me. gotta get use to it though.. training is not too bad especially with wonderful trainers, but just that my brain isnt really made for studying, so, tests and exams seems exceptionally hard.

after learning about what goes on behind the curtains, this job isnt as easy as it looks. lots of things go on behind passenger's back, lots of commands, drills, etc. have to really keep practicing.

i'll be gone next saturday to melbourne~ so excited. 1st overseas trip that is not with my family.. haha. let's hope i have enough money to have a good time.. =P

i think the next time any updates will be on this blog probably will be next week already. there isnt alot that im allowed to blog about anyways. =)

2010-10-17T18:15:00.002+08:00

Firstly, Happy 5 years and 1 month to Baby and I.

I think the reset only counts when we're officially married right?

Secondly, tmr is the day! My new life, new job, new adventure. Im so excited and also nervous at the same time. Time really flies and 2 weeks have gone since i resigned frm my previous job, and these 2 weeks were not spent well. Esp these few days.

My PMS mood is here.

there's so many things i regret in life, so many things i wish i can change. and the future is now a little uncertain. but the only thing i cherish and appreciate for now is my family (which includes my dearest BF ).

Im not sure how this blog will turn out as im not sure how my life will go. but for sure, i'll be back to blog about it.

2010-10-14T10:27:00.002+08:00

another 4 more days to go~ its exciting but at the same time scary.

Nothing much has been going on, cuz i've been doing the same thing over and over again, awake at 9am, gym at 11am, lunch at 12.30pm, either go out or play wii after lunch, and BF comes back at 5.30pm, dinner, tv, sleep. i should be enjoying huh, since this is the last few days for me to enjoy... but there's no one to go out with, no where to go, and nothing to do!

sigh.

2010-10-11T19:38:00.002+08:00

weekend was wonderful. I had a great time with my family for a short escapade to marina bay sands.

aunt had won some lucky draw and had 2 free nights to marina bay sands. and so we were all prepared to be gone for a 'holiday'

The room is HUGE!! i would say, this is the biggest hotel room i have ever stayed in. and not to mention, the most grandiose!

of course we started the weekend by shopping! window shopping that is. everything is too high class for me.

and dinner at east coast park (my favorite =P )

and off to sky park which has got excellent views in the night.

BF and i had the room to ourselves at night and it was one fabulous night BECAUSE, i slept in one bed, and BF slept in another. The best thing about having a double bed room, i get the bed to myself!

Next morning was brunch at Loyang Temple with vegetarian on the menu, and famous changi nasi lemak 'tabao-ed' back to the hotel while watching discovery channel. the most interesting thing was, discovery channel was showing megastructures of marina bay sands! like how its build, wad material was used, etc etc. and each time a fact came on about MBS, we went to the window/door/corridor to see if its true!

1 hour after lunch we headed to the humongous gym. the facility is GREAT!

one bad experience though, was the valet parking. HORRIBLE SERVICE. we had to wait for almost 45 minutes before our car came to us. URG. i wanted to complain the guy, but forget it.

and den its back to reality. oh well, a short fake holiday is better den nothing.

Went to buy my luggage and contact lenses today. luggage is 27 inches, look kinda small though. hopefully im buying the correct size!

mani/pedicure, haircut, makeups, shoe and im set!

EXCITED!! another week to go~

2010-10-07T17:39:00.002+08:00

i just got the news that i will be starting on 18th october. Quite apprehensive and scared about the unknown. but no choice.

alot of things i havent buy yet. ahhhh...

so little time!!!

2010-10-05T19:32:00.002+08:00

x-ray this morning was done and hopefully everything just pass smoothly and i will start my new job on 1st Nov.

Baby and i went to apply for Yishun BTO which is a stupid idea because both of us will be working at changi. And we have got a queue number for it. HAHAHA. the worse part is that we have got a high chance of getting the flat with our queue number.. LOL.

Im planning my best friend's Hens Night and its giving me a headache. Not everyone can accomodate or spend a few hours to just attend. So how? with my training starting, dont knw if i can even follow up with the plannings and everything.

My plans for this month's slimming activity will start tomorrow! Hopefully i will see results!

2010-10-04T20:34:00.002+08:00

CNCC and Medical is tiring today! took me a whole day! i should have gone earlier and do the x-ray at one go. sigh, now i have to take time tomorrow to get my x-ray done at another clinic at orchard.

Baby's not back yet and im missing him!! at the same time very sleepy.

YAWNS

2010-10-03T19:06:00.003+08:00

heya all!

im blogging from my new netbook which is TINY!!
bought this at 400bucks from Gain City's Expo sales. So far, so good. =D

I have already tried the msn video call function and it is working well. except that my sister's old Asus camera doesnt seem to be working. Have to go and dig out the old webcam and hope it is still working!

I love my dearest Fiance! Hee. So glad i have him in my life.

2010-10-02T15:25:00.002+08:00

haha, my last post was on Monday, seems kinda long though.

I went back to work on Tuesday and announced my last day was Wednesday cause i had to go for contract briefing on Thursday morning.

Yes, i called back to Jetstar's HR on Tuesday morning and got the necessary details.

Contract briefing on Thursday feels a little lonely. Cause batch-mates are old....... and i cant seem to fit into their conversations. SIGH.

Oh well, batch-mates will only be batch-mates for 1 month.

I had to rush and rush to get my vaccinations before my medical check on Monday, so i went to my old gp clinic on friday and got my Hep A and Hep B , and MMR jabs. and next 2 weeks, im getting my flu jab. And also, end of the month, another dose of Hep A and Hep B.

Hate injections!!

Also have to do criminal checks, and dental x-rays.

so much to do! so little time!

Gym this morning, slow jogged/brisk walk for 1hr and 10 minutes. feels good. Exercise starts today and diet starts Monday. Hope to see some results. i wanna be slim and have a FLAT tummy!! so many clothes i cant wear. so sad.

Im going to expo to see if i can get my net-book and camera. BYE!

2010-09-27T19:24:00.002+08:00

Went to meet my ex-colleague at AMK today for lunch. I was very very shocked when i saw her, because she was pregnant! I mean, she just got married, and it was a very pleasant surprise. =)

Congrats girl, gonna be a mummy soon! Take care of yourself!

It was a good meet up cuz we definitely gossiped. hehe.

I took the train to and fro the journey and, it is interesting. I see old man scratching and tugging on his balls, a beautiful young lady who is missing 2 front teeth (looks like from a brawl), auntie walking up and down looking for seat. Hilarious.

Halfway thru our chit chat session, i received a call from Jetstar. And as some of you might know, there's the Jetstar International (JQ) and Jetstar Asia (3K). Our following conversation goes :

N : Hello, im calling from Jetstar Asia, Nxxxxx, you have been selected to start ground school on 1st November.

Me : Oh, this is Jetstar ASIA?

N : yes

Me : you see, the thing is, i received the call from Jetstar Intl and have already accepted their offer, am just waiting for a date for ground school.

N : yes, this is the date, 1st Nov.

Me : but you're calling from Jetstar Asia right?

N : yes.

Me : so im waiting for Jetstar INTERNATIONAL's ground school

N : oh, ok sure. thanks.

i got soooo confused, i called the recruitment team and confirmed that i am in, and the lady confirmed it and that i'll be starting on 1st November.

Den i panicked.

i tried to call another lady from HR but to no avail!! what if N thinks im not interested in JQ and cancels my name off the list?! URG!!!!

JIALAT.

until now im still panicking and worried. hais.

Please please please let the HR call me tmr!!

2010-09-26T20:46:00.002+08:00

BBQ yesterday i would say, a success =)

apparently, only 2 of my colleagues turned up on time which is at 2.30pm! and the rest either reached at 4pm or, myself, at 5pm.

all of us had to bring food allocated and im very proud to bring Curry Chicken and stingray. Cuz my aunt's maid cooks the best curry chicken and the stingray i bought is very fresh with home-made sambal chilli. =D

BUT. The person whom we all have to take our hats off to is BC! He is in charge of fruits, so we were basically expecting grapes, cocktail dessert, etc. No. He bought a 10kg Watermelon which he stuffed into his bag. Worse still, he took the MRT. We were all surprise he was even able to bring it into the MRT station without people suspecting that it was a bomb!

Along side his watermelon, he also bought rock melon and other fruits. and that heaviness caused his bag to break. Poor thing, but Kudos!

Nelson (my boss) called me in midway of the BBQ and said very nice things. He said 'this BBQ is for you, so, wish you all the best, work hard, be smart and good luck.' i was quite stunned at his sudden 'speech' so i think i kinda replied with a very stupid comment.

Pictures will be up on facebook soon.

Time today was not spent wisely. Although i am still on leave tomorrow, Baby is not. Oh well, we have next week.

Count down : 2&half days to official long holiday! =DD

2010-09-25T11:45:00.002+08:00

i am using the rubber keyboard i just bought. and feeling very stupid now because i have bought it for the number pad by the side , but there isnt any!!! ANGRY.

worse, i have to type like REALLY hard before the letters come out, and if there isnt enough force, i get spelling mistakes.

making me re-type each word multiple times.

STUPID.

went to the market this morn to buy stingray and other necessities for the BBQ later. Had Mac Breakfast since it has been like months since i last had Mac breakfast.

bought barang barang which cost me like 60over bucks including the stingray which is expensive as hell.

k, im off to help with the food.

2010-09-24T10:49:00.002+08:00

on leave today =D

company BBQ tomorrow to welcome a new colleague. the whole bbq has been shifted to suit his time. But too bad, i cant make it so early. BBQ at 2.30pm. who does that? LOL.

Counting down, i have 2 and a half working days to go =DDDDD

den it will be hardcore slimming month!!

2010-09-22T08:03:00.002+08:00

Salt

(http://rodmagaru.files.wordpress.com/2010/01/salt-movie-poster.jpg)

Salt yesterday on DVD. It is a little confusing at first, and the way Salt is trying to prove her innocence, you really want to believe her. But suddenly she does wad she's trained to be, and you go 'NOOOOoooo.......'

Its an interesting movie.

Although i really hate Angelina Jolie after what happened with Brad & Jennifer, I have to say, she's HOT, and she's really a good actress. I still hate her, but i wont boycott her movies. All of her films have been really good (except Tomb Raider - cuz i dont watch it).

She's a humanitarian, doing good deeds all around the world.

Maybe if she donated 10k to me, i would hate her less. HAHAHA...

(hey, i need it ok.)

2010-09-21T15:30:00.002+08:00

SIGH.

i wanna splurge ! its not a need, its a want, but on the other hand, it IS a need!

i need to buy a laptop/notebook. the one i have at home is SPOILT and my sis gave me her ASUS which i think its too bulky!

i need to buy a camera, (though i already have a Canon 550D) but i cant bring my huge-ass camera with me to work related places and also, my Canon has been very comfortable at my sister's house.

BUT.

I cant! =(

I wont be having any salary next month, and for this month salary, i needa renew insurance, (personal and bike) etc etc... SIGH.

2010-09-21T09:25:00.002+08:00

celebrated Baby n I's anniversary on Saturday instead although we already had a very nice dinner on friday.

Went to take NEOPRINTS! hahah! so old school! the machine SUCKS though, cuz it made our eyes super HUGE. for me it was ok, but for Baby, ... HAHAH.

We watched Step Up 3D in Shaw, and i have to say, it was old school. The seats, the popcorn, everything.

The show was nice, but street dance isnt my kinda dance, so i only enjoyed the last part during the battle, with their clothes lighting up and stuff. =D makes me wanna learn dancing again.

And it was onto ECP for dinner! =D

after dinner, we headed to the beach and sat down, enjoy the breeze, gaze upon the stars, admire the bright moon. It was a lovely night which i will never forget.

Oh and we manage to find the Pop Ring candy, where he used it to propose by the beach. =P (still, no 'get down on one knee' proposal)

We have decided to postpone our wedding til 2 years later. if we wanna get married like next year, we have to start booking all the venues, etc by NOW. but we do not have the cash flow, so, we decided to start saving money, and during next year around June, we'd start booking all the necessity, and we'll have plenty of time to continue saving for the big day.

Engaged for 2 years sounds weird, but to plan a memorable wedding would be so much better den planning a budget and rushed wedding. =D

I have 5 more working days to my last day! Honestly, i think i'd miss this place. But on the other hand, i cant wait for the start of my new life!

2010-09-17T09:10:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 5 YEARS ANNIVERSARY!!

wow, it seems that in a blink of an eye, 5 years have gone by. if you ask me, what went on for every anniversary, i would tell you very honestly, i cannot remember.

but i do feel like, i never once missed out on our relationship, either by being too busy or by not caring. and that's why i believe that my dearest and i am perfect for each other.

Being my boyfriend isnt easy. i know. Andy knows. im temperamental, stubborn, egoistic, jealous, violent, grumpy, emotional. but everyone says, 'Andy is so lucky to have you' but i think, i am the lucky one having him in my life.

He has never once initiated breakup, never once threw his tantrum on me just because he was having a bad day, never once vent his anger on me in any way.

No matter how moody or upset he is, he would never show it to me so as to prevent me from getting worried or anything (though when i find out, i get pissed because i want to share his joy and sadness)

I have told myself endless times to be a better gf.

but now, i only want to be a better wife.

I love you dearest Baby!!

and i want to be with you for the rest of my life.

Muacks! =D

2010-09-16T09:30:00.002+08:00

JQ Called!!

i had 2 missed calls from them last night where i called them back but no answer.. i thought it was my colleague lor!!

this morning i ask my colleague if that was her number, she say no... den i start to tremble.. YIKES, I MISSED THE CALL I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR!

and i was so afraid that if i call back, somebody would answer 'Standard chatered Bank' or 'Slimming Sanctuary'. den i will be so darn pissed off.

but when i called back this morning, its JQ~ =D

They said that i have been shortlisted and asked if i am still keen and i said OF COURSE! but they wasnt able to give me an estimated month or batch that i will be in. Either Nov or Jan. now i pray so hard to be in batch 10, Nov.

HR of JQ , please call me asap and tell me to be ready for the adventure of my life starting November!!

2010-09-15T12:25:00.002+08:00

Its Baby's 23rd birthday!!

Happy birthday! Muacks!!

Its been 5 years since i have known you and have celebrated your birthday for you.
I remember my first cake to you is the mini cake i bought and where u blew the candles at 293 McDonald and didnt eat it cuz you said its precious and to keep the best for the last. =D

I love you baby! another year has gone by for you, and in another 10 years, this post will repeat itself.

Happy birthday again!!

2010-09-14T08:31:00.002+08:00

Back to work today. MC yesterday did me no good. Cuz today i am still feeling sucky and very very sleepy after meds. i shouldnt have taken the morning dose. grrr...

Yesterday was spent sleeping throughout the day. woke up at 7.30 to go see Dr, and reached home around 9am, did a little work for joanne, and den its off to bed after lunch. and i woke up only at 5 something when Baby called me to open the door.

But even now i am still super tired, throat super painful and body all aching. ZZZ.

One day MC is not enough!!

2010-09-12T17:45:00.003+08:00

why do time always seem to just fly by during weekends? even though it seems like we are doing nothing, but just lazing around.
in another few hours time, i am gonna go back to work in office which i am dreading cuz i have to wake up at 6am and can only come home at 6pm.

SIGH.

pls let time fast forward til 1st October...

2010-09-11T22:47:00.002+08:00

Gonna Get Wii for myself with Baby's birthday as an excuse.. MUAHAHAHA..

p/s: im loving my ring!! =PP

2010-09-10T22:40:00.003+08:00

So, what's the difference for me, now that i am engaged.

Not much difference.

The excitement lasts only for the few minute when the ring is placed on my finger. Once in awhile, i look at my ring and i smile.

But other than that, not much difference.

One question. How do i address him now that he's no longer BF but not yet Hubby ? Cant call him fiance fiance in my blog right?? =/

He popped the question last night in a very unromantic and uncreative way. Apparently, he was waiting for me to go home and pop the question face to face with one knee (the classic but with no flower), but i was out with my babes til quite late and while i was enjoying my Ice cream (courtesy of Hongen), Baby sent me a text message saying :

'Sorry, i go sleep lo... sorry later you reach home see my hp video clips, i got thing to tell you... i duno how to sms it out... so i video it down... i so sleepy... lol... good night... love you...'

i kinda guessed wads going on. but yet kinda worried. =/

When i reached home, i saw the video. In the video, he says (in chinese and half open eyes) :

'Laopo, sorry i didnt wait for you to come back, i want to sleep lo. but i still have smth to tell you. a few days later will be our anniversary, but i wanted to propose to you much earlier but i do not have money because i only work at pizza hut. Now, i have a stable job, i am confident that i can take care of you. I hope you will marry me. I already bought the ring that you like very much and hide it somewhere here. When you are back and saw this video, you go and search for it. When you have found it, and if you are willing to marry me, wear it and i will know the answer the next morning when i wake up. I love you'

I didnt wear it and gave him the answer the next morning. After i found it, i woke him up and demanded that he put it on for me. Hee.

So that's the unromantic proposal i got.

We went ring hunting like i have mentioned in previous posts, but according to the sales person, the ring cost below my budget. but i think baby actually called up the jeweler shop to tell them to lie to me, cuz he told my aunt the real price and my aunt accidentally slipped her tongue.

Now i very confused and Baby refuses to let me see the receipt. But one thing i know for sure is that im gonna scold him if i find out that the ring is above my budget set for him! Hmph! =P

Okie, now comes all the planning and headaches.

17th Sept 05.

9th Sept 10.

2010-09-09T23:43:00.001+08:00

Relationship status - Engaged.

Though i wanted it to be on the 17th of September, but the 9th of September sounds as nice =DD

2010-09-09T08:08:00.002+08:00

it has been awhile since i had to work late. and it has taken a toll on me even though it was one night and not very late into the night. i wasnt able to wake up today..

Samuel went for his briefing yesterday for JQ and he helped me to snoop whether i am accepted. And seeing his name in my inbox on facebook, my heart stopped for a minute and as soon as i saw 'Congrats' i knew what was the following words. But to be sure, i had to keep reading the message over and over again just to make sure im not reading words from my hallucination.

According to him, i have got in to JQ !

=DDDDD

2010-09-08T10:54:00.002+08:00

counting down to my very long holiday.

Another 22 days to go where 14 are working days. =D

Taking leave on BF's Birthday and our anniversary.

BF wants to celebrate in a hotel. We've celebrated via Sky Dining (cable car), holidays, picnics, nice dinner, but not in a hotel before.

Its going to burn a hole in my pockets. But as BF says, its gonna be worth it.

Deciding between Gallery Hotel or Fullerton.

Gallery hotel is cheaper, and actually offers more things den Fullerton, 4-star. but if i just top up around 50bucks, i can book Fullerton, a 6-star. hmm..

Other than that, also have to buy birthday and anniversary gift for BF.

He wants the Sony walkman NWZ-W252. which i will be getting for him, but what should i get him for the other gift? One for birthday, one for anni. hmmm....

September is always a headache month.

2010-09-07T15:43:00.002+08:00

I met a couple (3 to be exact) of people online when i was preparing for the interviews to the various airlines.

Syahidah,

Chu ting,

Samuel.

Very nice people! It was really nice meeting them.

Syahidah and i will be starting our training with 3K around Nov. (Unless i get the call from JQ which means i will be colleagues with Samuel)

And Chu Ting is aiming for higher airlines.

I will follow the path that fate and destiny already paved for me. though my heart really wants to join JQ, i will still join 3K if JQ doesnt accept me.

Hope~~

2010-09-06T09:38:00.002+08:00

grr.. i dont know what did i eat yesterday.. diarrhea........

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20100905/twl-vatican-iran-execution-diplomacy-575b600.html

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20100905/tts-moto-prix-smr-moto2-tomizawa-dead-c1b2fc3.html

2 news that i just read.

quite sad for both.

but it tells you that life is fragile and shouldnt be taken for granted.

Lets just pray for them.

2010-09-05T21:32:00.002+08:00

Sent Max to stay with Rainbow at Mount Pleasant.

Was quite sad and unwilling about it. But actually it will be for the better.

Went to IMM after that today. Was going around for ring shopping for quite some time now. BFF Fang intro-ed me to her hubby's uncle shop (i think) at chinatown, but their solitaire is a little pricey and way over our budget.

Went to SK, Citigem, Sookee, Lee Hwa, Goldheart.

Lee Hwa and Goldheart is also too expensive.

Whereas the other 3 is affordable esp after the discounts given.

I really liked a simple classic solitaire True Love series from SK. And boy, the diamond cuts are very very beautiful. The design is simple, and its the type of design you would see on every engaged ladies' hand. This ring is slightly over our budget.

On the other hand, i really liked this flower cut from Sookee which is very different for a proposal ring. It is a 6 piece center piece with additional small diamonds on the band itself. And this ring is within budget.

Headache.

Another issue on my mind is where am i gonna be celebrating my anniversary!? BF is being very bad. he's not giving suggestions or helping to give his opinions about my choices. So bad.

But i am excited! For many things. The proposal from BF (maybe??), our anniversary, my last day of work, my one month of leave (which i am going to spend slimming down) and of course, the start of a new job.

Kinda hope time will hurry to 1st Oct den slow down for at least a month. Hehe.

2010-09-04T19:23:00.003+08:00

BF is sick. not exactly sick, but he's feeling unwell.

He has some chest pain for a few days already but it worsened yesterday night which prevented him from getting a good night sleep.

This morning i accompanied him to the Polyclinic and we had to wait and wait and wait. Spend 3 hours there and 25bucks to end up being referred to NUH.

Went to NUH and again, wait and wait. Spent another 3 hours and 95bucks and went home.

Money flying away. But im just relieved that BF is ok.

2010-09-03T11:15:00.002+08:00

i dont belong. its a good decision. feeling more and more left out and lonely.

Work load is increasing. til my BF is so frustrated whenever im late which is always.

My last day 30th September. As announced by my boss.

2010-09-02T10:51:00.000+08:00

it seems to have been awhile since i last blogged..

nothing much has happened. so no updates.

2010-08-27T10:50:00.000+08:00

Boss is EVIL..... He's trying to tempt me to stay!

hahaah... i actually feel guilty to resign....

but...

I've got it! I've been accepted by Jetstar Asia!

=DDD

2010-08-26T11:51:00.002+08:00

Just had a long chat with Boss. the best boss any company could ever have.

but i hate it that he's trying to make me stay cuz it only makes it even harder for me to leave.

its just that he keep saying i have the potential and shouldnt waste it. but i feel like im actually too depressed to do any work which is very irresponsible.

I know for sure that if Jetstar calls me, i will leave.

but im not sure if Jetstar rejects me, will i still leave?

there's so many uncertainties.

- i am this stressed in 4 months. imagine 10 months. would i have killed myself?

- staying sales? buyer? or buyer assistant?

- do i really want to leave a good working environment?

- would this episode of emotional turmoil repeat itself?

For now, im just debating whether i should leave even before Jetstar reveals the results cuz of the following :

- i can take a break and just take the time to handle and find myself.

- i wont be wasting anybody else's time.

- accts now under me can be passed to someone with more capabilities.

- i dont wanna stay and end up still have to leave.

- disappoint my colleagues and boss early, rather den to leave them hanging in the air and den break their hearts again..

HOW?!!??!?!?!

2010-08-26T09:09:00.003+08:00

i think im going to a tremendous amount of stress. and with a history of depression, i do not want another relapse. but i dont know how. maybe i'll go run on the treadmill and cry out loud later.

Signs and symptoms of Stress :

From : http://www.helpguide.org/mental/stress_signs.htm

Memory problems - yes
Inability to concentrate - yes
Poor judgment - not sure
Seeing only the negative - yes
Anxious or racing thoughts - yes
Constant worrying - yes

Moodiness - super YES
Irritability or short temper - super YES
Agitation, inability to relax - super yes
Feeling overwhelmed - super yes
Sense of loneliness and isolation - super YES
Depression or general unhappiness - super super YES

Aches and pains - not really
Diarrhea or constipation - nope
Nausea, dizziness - yes to the dizziness
Chest pain, rapid heartbeat - nope
Loss of sex drive - yes
Frequent colds - nope

Eating more or less - eating less
Sleeping too much or too little - sleeping too little
Isolating yourself from others - yes
Procrastinating or neglecting responsibilities - yes and im guilty for it
Using alcohol, cigarettes, or drugs to relax - not at the moment
Nervous habits (e.g. nail biting, pacing) - yes

and from http://www.wrongdiagnosis.com/s/stress/symptoms.htm :

Anxiety - yep

Chronic anxiety - not yet

Overwhelming worry - yep

Difficulty with decisions - yep

Difficulting thinking clearly - yep

Loss of confidence - yes

Loss of hope - super yes

Physical symptoms - ??

Palpitations - nope
Overbreathing - i think so. but i do have history of hyperventilating
Muscle tension - nope
Headache - yes
Back ache - nope
Aches and pains - nope
Poor posture - dont think so..
Joint pain - nope
Muscle pain - nope
Sweating - nope
Digestive symptoms - nope

Sleep disorders - yep

Difficulty concentrating - yes

Irritability - superYES

Upset stomach - nope

Job dissatisfaction - YES

Low morale -YES

Depression - YES

Might as well go kill myself

2010-08-25T18:51:00.002+08:00

Was suppose to go back to work today but took leave again for the Jetstar Intl interview.

I got a call to go back for the 2nd round interview which is today.

Reached darn early today at 8am when im suppose to reach at 8.45am. Went to tie up my hair etc etc and proceeded to the room.

Had some briefing, den games and den selection.

A very very nerve wrecking experience.

I was almost disappointed when they called quite a number of people, i was the last few thats being called out.

My heart stopped when i heard my name.

Happy but quite disappointed as my friend didnt get in.

After lunch was another briefing, and den a one-to-one interview and on to the swimming test. The pool was super small. i was expecting something bigger. just 15m and we only had to do 2 laps, just back and fro.

and now, we're just waiting for the results to be out in another maybe 1 to 2 weeks, maybe even up to 3 weeks.

My boss called while i was waiting for the 2nd round results. I actually hate that they're trying my make me stay, because it only makes me more guilty and more upset. They are the best colleague and boss anyone could wish for. And i still disappoint them. Sigh.

Sorry people.

2010-08-24T11:45:00.002+08:00

i've made my decision and told my BFF that i am going to tender tomorrow.

I can never be her. she excels in her work, but i know i can never be half as good as her.

Each day going to work is depressing. I feel alone even though i have my best friend by my side.

I feel like im destroying the potential accounts that are under my care right now and i am not going to be able to do a good job with it.

I know she's not going to be happy with my decision, and im not so sure if i am going to be happy with my own decision, but i know for sure i dont want to drag my feet to work everyday and want to cry in office everyday.

Sorry babe, i know i have let you down. And i know somehow this issue is going to always be in the back of our minds and causing a little disrupt with our friendship. I hope you forgive me.

I feel loserish and i am super duper depressed. esp when recent interviews are not going well.

I feel depressed and i just wanna go kill myself. GRRRR.

I HATE MYSELF.

2010-08-23T19:06:00.002+08:00

Jetstar interview today. I have to admit that i do feel that it is more fun and more fair den any other airlines interview.

Met alot of people, but sadly, i forgot to get any of their contacts or facebook ID.

Im having quite high hopes on this recruitment, but... i don't wanna give too much hopes and will be very disappointed if i dont get through.

I have actually mad my decision whether to leave my company. but i am not going to post it out here just yet, because i want to tell my BFF face to face. i don't want her to learn of the news here.

2010-08-22T18:41:00.002+08:00

Qatar Airways interview for me has ended. Some lucky hopefuls have been selected to go through the final interview tomorrow, but not me.

I dont know to be sad or thankful. Because half of me really wants it quite badly, but half of me kinda not want to get it.

But i must say, it again caused my self esteem to drop a little.

The interview process started yesterday where we have to go and submit our CV. I went with this girl, Chu Ting, whom i met from Flowerpod.com

She's so nice and we clicked at once. after the submission, we went to have Mac breakfast.

I was napping when the call came for my interview the next day which is today. That really made me happy.

But today when i went there, i was quite alone. Imagine if i had to go to Doha. the loneliness.

I guess this is why i was not chosen too, cause i did not mingle around much. =/

We had this 3 hour briefing on Doha, Qatar, the pay, benefits, etc etc. and then the written English test. I felt like i did well in my English test. It consists of 4 sections. 3 MCQ and one Essay.

And during the test, they called us out for the reach test. I though for Asians, they will lower the mark of 212cm to 208cm. But it wasn't lowered. I wasn't able to reach it.

I tried my best to sit up straight and kept smiling at all times but i guess i wasn't good enough.

Come to think of it, they called me based on my CV and not keep me after the 1st round shows that i actually have a good CV, but my potential? I do not know.

My uncle was again, telling me the prospects of a Cabin Crew, (its not good, blah blah blah) but i know its my dream and passion and i will pursue it until i reach my goal. No matter how demoralizing, depressing it is to not be selected, i will continue~

Persevere Rebecca! You will be able to do it someday!

2010-08-20T08:45:00.002+08:00

TGIF!!

i've been staying at my aunt's house for the past 2 nights and i believe it makes Phoenix a very happy girl!

( but i still miss Rainbow badly )

i was just looking thru Mark Lee's blog (i think its his wife's blog) and i got very very envious!

Look at him! an 'ah beng' now successful with a beautiful wife and kid. touring the earth and enjoying his life.

Shiok much.

I also wanna be successful and tour the earth. Oh pls let me nail the interview!

2010-08-19T09:28:00.001+08:00

damn sick with my work.

issues issues and non stop issues.

No PO = problem

Got PO = problem.

NOT my PO = problem

I think i am not suited to be sales.

Oh please let me fly.

2010-08-18T09:57:00.002+08:00

I told my dearest BF that he has to propose with the candy ring below. But seems like its out of stock in SG. so anybody who knows where to buy it, PLEASE LET ME KNOW. if not i can never marry

(Photo Credit : http://www.candywarehouse.com/ringpops.html)

2010-08-18T09:29:00.002+08:00

i dont understand. why is it that on weekdays, i have trouble waking up to get to work, and even when i am at work, i feel so darn sleepy. too sleepy to actually do any work, hence time seemingly passing so slowly.

but during the weekends, i'll wake up at the same time that i usually wake up on weekdays, and have trouble going back to sleep cuz im too awake, feeling fresh and energized. -.-'''

its again mid week! meaning the weekends is coming real soon!! =))

2010-08-17T08:18:00.001+08:00

Happy 4 years and 11 months anniversary to me and my dearest BF. =D

2010-08-16T08:10:00.002+08:00

monday blues!!!

and worst of all, my arms, legs and almost every muscle is aching frm gym session yesterday..

30 minutes of walking on the treadmill

10 minutes of jogging

10 minutes of the stepping thingy (like walking the stairs)

and 2 sets of the weights.

went to my aunt's house ytd again to get the curry chicken for 'potluck' in office.

and now super sleepy!!

why is it that when you force yourself to wake up for work, you'll be damn tired and on a weekend, your body just automatically wakes up and dont feel sleepy at all! =/

ok anyway, alone in office with boss. =/ cant do anything much~~

2010-08-13T14:53:00.003+08:00

Sandwich party is over~

Pictures should be up soon!!

Really gotta thank my dearest BF, cause he's such a nice guy. Some bf's would never allow their gfs to be a cabin crew cause of the long distance thing and all sorts of issues. I actually didnt know that anybody would mind their gf being a cabin crew until today. But dearest BF have always been very supportive of me in what ever i do. Even though wrong or right, he just supports me in his very best.

Yesterday when i told him im gonna try out Jetstar, and the pay is darn low, but all BF says, 'its ok, i'm here.' oh man, so touched. and den when i said im gonna try for Qatar (which means i need to relocate), all he said was 'don't worry, i'll wait for you. but lets ROM first if you really got in.'

I know i have the most wonderful BF (soon to be hubby) in the world but sometimes i take him for granted and things like this makes me appreciate him again. Though we have our problems and quarrels, he will always give in to me and love me unconditionally. =)

I love ya Andy!

2010-08-12T13:46:00.002+08:00

Sandwich party tomorrow in the office! =DDD

I really love my colleagues. Such a fun bunch. But sad to say that i am gonna leave them if i can get into the Airline Industry.

I'll be trying out with Qatar next Saturday. A part of me hopes that i dont get in cuz i'll have to relocate to Doha. But a part of me really wants to get in for the adventure and sense of in-dependency. Also, its a test for me and my BF (for coming 5 years). if i get in, this opportunity will either strengthen or strain our relationship. So... we'll see how it goes.

I also sent in my resume to Jetstar. See if they call.. their pay is low, but i'll take it as a stepping stone. average can take home around 1.8/2k. But for Qatar, average take home 2.7-3k. quite a big difference uh.

Good luck to me!

Current work hasn't been going too well.. No orders lately, but luck MAY be changing cuz i managed to clear one past issue. So hopefully will be able to clear more...

Seems like i having been blogging everyday huh. Haha, shows that i got quite alot of rantings to do!

2010-08-11T08:17:00.002+08:00

i guess everybody has had their darkest days before. and the feeling of the unknown.

i am loving Eminem's Not Afraid. i guess i really need to man up and get rid of my fears.

Life's too short to worry and be afraid all the time. Need to loosen up.

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

.I need to breakaway from my boring lifestyle. it has become a boring routine.

6am - wake up

7am - leave house

7.30am - reach office

12pm - eat

6pm - leave office

6.30pm - reach home / eat

10pm - sleep

its the same thing i do everyday. sucks.

regrets fill my heart.

2010-08-10T13:16:00.002+08:00

i feel ridiculous, humiliated and totally like a fool.

After much decision making, i decided to live my dreams. Right?

wrong.

i didnt get into Silkair. not even the 2nd round for the one-to-one interview.

i have no freaking idea why. i mean if lets say the girls who got in is those super sexy, tall, chio, walk and talk like those upper class lady, i got nothing to say.

but in my group only 3 got in and only one has the quality to be a air stewardess.

i better not complain so much if not some people will think im eating sour grapes.

to summarize, 'the interviewers are kind of blind.'

to gain experience, im gonna go ahead and try out for qatar, emirates, cathay pacific, etc etc. who cares if i gotta relocate.

the Hungry Ghost Festival has begun. scary eh? time to be good and not go out late!

i slept at 10.30pm last night, woke up at 6.20pm and still freaking tired. just somehow, i did not sleep well despite the hours. =/

2010-08-05T16:16:00.002+08:00

i have decided,

i've missed too many interviews and chances to be a cabin crew. and so i am not going to miss another chance. yes, i am young, but do i have to wait for another 5 years before living my dreams? no way. what if i died in another 2 years. am i gonna die with regrets that i never lived my dreams? no way.

im just gonna go try out this coming interview and i will see how it goes. if i am fated to join the airline, i will get in, if not, den i'll just continue to work here until the next interview comes up.

i regret getting my tattoo. because of the tattoo, i cant try for SQ. grrrr.

actually now, im hoping to get in. wish me good luck!!

2010-08-03T11:34:00.003+08:00

Im in a dilemma again!! =(

Its similiar to my troubles in June 09 when im torn in between to try for Qatar Airlines.

Silkair is recruiting.

and im hesitating to go for the interview cause of the below reasons :

1) i just started my job in the electronics industry

2) my best friend recommended me this job

3) boss treats me damn well. and he's super nice.

4) my basic pay here might be as good as silkair's basic (not too sure though)

but my heart soooooo wanna go because :

1) its been my ambition and dream to be an air stewardess.

2) my current job is needs alot of luck (which i do not have)

3) i feel like im disappointing my boss, and so i should go early and not prevent another sales from taking my accounts to do it well.

4) although it is shift work, etc, the stress period is only when u are on duty, when u are off duty, u have nothing to think about!

HOW!!!

long overdue pix

2010-07-30T13:02:00.006+08:00

Today the office is moving, so we're working from home. I actually had plans to skip work and enjoy today as my dearest BF is starting on his new job next week. But he got called back to some orientation yesterday and today.

So now im left alone, to work with a headache from sleeping too much, sorethroat and feels like a fever coming on.

Grrr.

Swensens on payday.

And on to Loyang Temple

My dad's working at this chicken rice stall at Yishun blk 800+

Look at how crisp the skin is

My lunch!

Remember to go and try it out!

i need a break from this routine of mine. HOLIDAY!

2010-07-27T09:31:00.002+08:00

My dearest BF has high cholesterol! And he's only 22 years old. LOL. Have to start limiting him to delicacies of sorts! Prawns, crabs, egg, NO NO NO~!

Yesterday after work, BF brought me to watch The Sorcerer's Apprentice. It was a nice show, but my tummy was in pain that caused me to be distracted throughout the show. =(

But the show is enjoyable. I think there might be a part 2 sequel to the show. =)

The Sorcerer. - Nicholas Cage

The Apprentice - Jay Baruchel

The Villian - Alfred Molina

The Sorceress - Monica Bellucci

(Photos credit - Yahoo! Movies)

I really wanted to watch Inception, but BF wanted to watch this show instead. oh well. next time!

Fang and I shopped online yesterday for shoes~ i bought 3 and she bought 2. hee. i think i am shopping too much! Ok, should stop shopping soon~ =P

Dinner with my babes this coming Thursday ~ =D

2010-07-26T13:50:00.002+08:00

first things first, YAWNZ. cuz its Monday blues. every week should start on a Tuesday, den we'll get rid of Monday's blues. but wouldn't the blues be on Tuesday ?

i better go, boss is here, will update again soon!

2010-07-22T10:23:00.002+08:00

Its Thursday again!!

Work seems to be going better, thanks to the crystals i believe and all the constant praying.

But i hope my good luck continues, although i know that its impossible to hit target this month.

I like the song from B.O.B - Airplanes. and its featuring Hayley Williams, making it a double 'like' =)

Please life, dont make fun of me anymore, go pick on someone else~ =P

2010-07-19T10:06:00.002+08:00

I am super sleepy right now. Like SUPER. my eyes gonna close soon.

Saturday was again another boring day, staying home until i had to meet Steph at 8.30pm to head down to Butters.

It was Hong En's birthday.

And i was very unlucky that night.

We started off the night with Five-Tens the game, and i kept losing. Hong En didnt make things better for me by standing next to me.

I wasnt too good of a drinker, but i am able to hold down my silliness and drunkard-ness. I was dizzy, and felt like talking. But other then that, i dont think i have made a fool of myself too much.. hee.

And i dont know what's the occasion that night, but there was ALOT of weird people. They way they stared isnt like 'oh, u're cute, may i know you', its like 'oh. u are cute, i wanna kill you'

Damn scary ok.

Before the night ended we had this guy coming up to us, trying to get Steph's number. but failed and being a sore loser, just walked away. HAHA.

Left the place about 3am, and Steph managed to sneak into Rebel without ME. =(

Home sweet home, ZZZZ.

It wasnt a very good night cuz

1) the music wasnt very good.

2) alot of weird guys lingering around.

3) it was packed, almost like Sardine can. =/

4) Fang left early.

5) my feet hurt.

Another clubbing session any time soon??

2010-07-15T11:43:00.001+08:00

Sigh.

I dont even know how to start off this blog entry. cuz i have so freaking much to say, but not sure how to piece them together.

so, im not going to blog.

2010-07-13T11:19:00.002+08:00

so much to rant.

Not so sure if this is the right job for me afterall. Since this job actually requires LUCK (which i do not have)

I am always sian and pissed off during work. makes me stressed mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

Its important to hold a job that makes you happy no matter how high or low the pay is. No?

I used to have the motivation. But its like, there's no point in working when there is no help from colleagues who are not doing their jobs right.

Im like working for nothing and the target on the board is laughing at me.

Of course i want lots of orders, but having orders with problem causes me headaches always.

GRRRRRR. IM SO FREAKING PISSED OFF.

2010-07-12T09:23:00.002+08:00

Spain won. No much feeling cause im not a Holland fan much. But would really have wanted to see Germany VS Holland in the finals.

Oh well.

Now that's its all over, finally we can all get on with our lives and resume our very normal and boring routine of life.

Weekend was a bore. Felt that time was a drag.

Saturday was spent at home napping whole day and dinner at aunt's house. The place is different without Rainbow. i was bored like hell and my BF pissed me off. And there's no Rainbow to just be by my side as she usually would. Its just, lonely.

Was holding back my tears.

Sunday was another boring day. Went to the temple and quarrelled with BF. and den home and waste my time all the way til 8pm and dinner and home.

Super boring and super no life. -.-

2010-07-09T14:00:00.003+08:00

my wounds were hurting the whole night causing me sleepless night. it didn't hurt very much unless i touch it, but it so happens that i'm a right sided sleeper. (and my wounds are on my right)

Random : i HAVE TO stop biting my nails. look so ugly. its too short to even do any extensions. =/

Friday again. at last!

Boss is going out to see some people, and i cant wait because i really need to nap.

2010-07-08T20:49:00.002+08:00

oh yes,

There was also a rainbow otw home among the dark dark sky. Together with a very very beautiful sunset.

2010-07-08T20:11:00.003+08:00

Bike skidded today. Rough day at work already, and i had to get into an accident. There's alot to thank for, but hey, i cant help feeling down okay.

Dearest BF came to fetch me after work, we went for dinner and den decided to head home. Saw my bff Fang in the lift as HongEn is otw to fetch her. As we left the building, Hong En reached.

At the next bend, we skidded. ( For the FIRST time in my life)

The whole situation happened so quickly, but for me, it felt like the whole world kinda slowed down. I could actually still recall the whole accident.

First i felt the back tyre slide to the left.

And then baby used the break (maybe slightly too hard)

His legs came down to try to get some balance.

My left leg tried to come down to help with the balancing.

And we skid right.

I felt my hips hit the ground.

and stuck out my right arm to break my fall.

My left hand was held high protecting my iPhone.

And suddenly i snapped back into reality.

I remember my dearest telling , 'are u ok, if u are ok, get up'

So weird.

But thank goodness that the car behind us was Fang and Hongen.

Our wounds are not that bad luh.. but it was the shock element to Fang that really scared her.

There's actually alot to thank for.

- Luckily that baby and i decided to have dinner nearby.

- Luckily that Hongen is fetching Fang

- Luckily they were just behind us

- Luckily that we were on the small road

- Luckily i wasnt holding my lappie

and lots more.

But the most important, THANK GOD THAT I WAS THERE WHEN IT HAPPENED.

i could not have imagine if baby had this accident alone while coming to fetch me.

Sigh, but after all, we were luckily to have escaped with superficial scratched and bruises.

2010-07-08T14:18:00.003+08:00

Was just surfing the net and came across this Yahoo News about AngelaBaby. I wasn't very sure what's the big hoo-haa about her because to be honest, i have NEVER heard of her before.

So apparently, she is a HK artist who is damn chio, but was rumoured to have undergone plastic surgery.

Erm, she kinda looks like Dawn Yang. (AngelaBaby's surname is also Yang. are they related?) Either Dawn copied her or she copied Dawn.

But, who cares. I mean seriously. she's fucking chio, has her career, travel around the world, and i would be darn happy if i am half as successful as she is.

I would happily go under the knife to have her eyes.

But i'd have to be rich first.

oh well.

2010-07-08T09:01:00.002+08:00

ANGRY. GERMANY LOST.

i didn't watch the match, but i know if i do, i'll be utterly disappointed with the Germans. what happened to the Germany Team that thrashed England and Argentina?

Sigh. BIG MASSIVE UBER DISAPPOINTMENT.

Anyway, yea you can see from my post that i am actually feeling better. Already accepted that Max has gone but i will always miss him.

Work hasn't been going on too smoothly. Target has been increased and today is almost the end of the 2nd week of July, i'm not so sure if i am able to actually hit half of my target =/

SIGH.

2010-07-05T10:28:00.002+08:00

Its been 3 days since Max's passing.

I had a good cry on friday night. I cried so hard that my BF was so afraid and couldn't do anything but to watch. I've never cried like that before in my live. Not when i had to give Kula away, not when Rainbow passed, not when my family fell apart.

It was a really good cry, because when i woke up the next morning, i had no more tears to cry.

I still feel like crying, but no tears for me to cry it out.

I brought Max home on Saturday after going to see Rainbow at the colombarium. After bring Max home, i actually felt better, still missing him but, i know he's around.

Weekend was spent at my sister's BF's hse. Dinner on Saturday, and Lunch & Dinner the next day. My sis and I cooked for dinner yesterday. Took my mind off Max for a bit. I cooked the Soup, Vege and Rice.

Soup & Vege - pass

Rice fail. Supposedly the easiest to cook but still fail. Cause the rice has soaked in the water for a little too long. stupid mistake.

Anyway, i had fun cooking. I hope i have my own house soon, cause only den i will be able to cook.

Back to work.

2010-07-02T15:19:00.002+08:00

theres so many words left unsaid, so many actions left undone.

now its too late, i can only blame myself.

2010-07-02T13:17:00.001+08:00

god suck?

devil suck?

either way, life sucks.

2010-07-02T12:51:00.001+08:00

im lost.

i dont know what to do.

2010-07-02T12:22:00.002+08:00

it fucking hurts.

every minute im thinking about Max.

each time i go to the toilet, i cry w/o fail.

and i have to go back office pretending everything is fine.

each time my tears well up in my eyes, somebody talks to me.

i just do not have the mood to do anything else.

i want to rant.

i want to vent.

i want to die.

2010-07-02T09:06:00.003+08:00

i finally am seeing some light in my life. started smiling and laughing. finally letting go of Rainbow. I am seeing some brightness in my life, finally accepting the death of Rainbow.

but life is too jealous that im having a good life.

has to make me go over the grieving process all over again. but i blame myself.

yesterday my dearest bf was sick. down with fever. but i threw a mini tantrum. i was wearing heels and had to bring my lappie home. so i wanted bf to come fetch me.

Max was alright when he left the house.

But when we got home at 8.15pm, we saw Max, covered in diarrhea, lethargy. dont even want to move.

straight away i rushed to Pets Lover Centre at Yishun, they said they couldnt do anything. So i rushed down to Mount Pleasant at Sembawang. Their vet went back. So i rushed to Mount Pleasant Hospital.

Drip is put up, started feeding oral glucose, gave some medications. and allow Max to rest. Max was a little bit more alert after the initial does of oral fluids. Able to lift its head up, and look at us. I had hope.

11.40pm : replied an email to US colleague.

11.45pm : recieved a very random SMS from a friend to becareful while riding.

11.50pm: recieved a call from Mt Pleasant, Max collapsed.they are trying to resus him. i prayed.

12.05pm : recieved another call from Mt Pleasant, Max passed away. I burst into tears.

I rushed down to accompany Max. He looks like he's just sleeping, w/o the breaths. I cleaned him up, and just sat there hugging Max. His ears were pale, instead of the usual pink.

We left the hospital around 2pm.

We spend around $500+ but still unable to exchange it for Max's life.

I hate myself.

i am angry. if i never asked baby to come fetch me, he would have watched max, and we wouldnt be home so late.

i really wanna vent my anger. why Max! i want to be sick instead of Max!

i really dont know what did i do wrongly. nothing has been changed with Max's diet. and Max is eating well and everything.

I already bought several things to build Max a second floor cage. I bought Max new brush.

im so pissed. im so fucked up.

2010-06-30T11:29:00.002+08:00

The Karate Kid yesterday night at GV Yishun.

It is a good show with a good combination of laughter, tears and excitement.

Lunch with Jenny and Fang at Waraku @Central .

Over ate again, too full now. just want to sleep quite badly...

2010-06-28T10:41:00.002+08:00

Its been 4 days since Rainbow's passing. And i am still not over it.

Some times i think to myself, how nice if the feeling i am feeling is out of guilt of not being nicer to her. But i know that none of my emotions are based on guilt, and that's what makes me more upset. Cause i genuinely loved her and treated her well.

I still feel like crying each time i close my eyes and see her face. I still feel like calling her back.

Each time im on the bike, i look into the sky and try to find her amongst the cloud. but each time i reach my destination with disappointment.

I really want to bring her home. But the discussion for her urn placement have caused a stir in our family.

I miss her. and when i saw the short video of her, i almost wanted to burst out crying. Although the video had nothing special, just had her sitting on the chair, looking around, it brought back many memories.

Im not sure when can i accept the fact and when can i go over to my aunt's house again. I dont think its too soon, but i hope its not long. Because Phoenix will be alone and neglected.

Sigh.

In Memory of Rainbow

2010-06-25T11:20:00.002+08:00

I've had pets that passed away before. But their deaths didnt hurt as much as Rainbow's.

I still remember the day we met Rainbow. It was one Saturday night when Andy, Sis, Sis's BF and I went over for dinner and we saw a tiny dog. It was also coincidentally that Phoenix went for grooming and came back with scratches. We all blamed Rainbow. She was so scared that she hid in the toilet. Only after our cousin told us that it was the groomers fault that we realized we've maligned Rainbow.

I took a tiny piece of treat and went to the toilet to give it to her. She cautiously smelled me and took the treats from my hand. Once she has gobbled the treat, she jumped right into my lap and we became best friends.

She was the sweetest thing i've ever met. Everytime we go over to my aunt's hse for dinner, she'd run right to the door and start barking like saying Hello! And as soon as i sit down, she'd jump onto my lap and whine and whine. She wouldnt let Phoenix come near me. And if i were to stroke Phoenix, she'd run to me and give me the 'puss in boots' eyes.

Whenever we're having dinner, she'll sit beside me and wait for my food to drop. if i didnt 'accidentally' drop anything, she'd stand on her hind legs and use her paws to poke me.

After dinner, we'll be on the couch, and without permission, she'll just jump right next to us.

I remember bringing her to my house for sleepovers. And i'll miss how she sleep in my arms.

I remember bringing her out for night cycling. and i'll miss her curiousity.

I remember how she loves getting the attention, even when non of us want to attend to her.

I remember her tiny tennis ball. and i'll miss her bringing the ball to me.

I remember how excited she is whenever we hold her ball.

I remember how she wait near the cup board cause her ball is stuck under the cupboard.

I remember how she'd jump onto me, as soon as i lie down.

I remember how she'd just sit beside me when im doing my work.

Her fur colour is black and white. But Rainbow, the name is based on her personality.

I went to see her for the last time yesterday. Cold, and hard. My heart ached. seeing her lying there, it just looked like she's sleeping. but no matter how i called for her, she didnt open her eyes and look at me.

I saw her cute ears, bright eyes, tiny paws, all not moving anymore. I cant believe. I dont want to believe. i want to hold her in my arms so bad. but she wouldnt jump.

Its Rainbow the one that brightened up the place, puts a smile on everyone's faces.

Usually on a weekday, i wouldnt miss her as much as i miss her now, but i'd look forward to seeing her again on Saturdays.

But today, i miss her more than anyone or anything else in this world.

Im having a hard time trying to keep my tears in. I smile and i laugh. But in my heart, i really want to cry out loud.

And i realized, i never told Rainbow that i love her.

Rainbow, sorry its late, but I love you.

2010-06-24T17:57:00.002+08:00

Alone in the office, making up for the hours I took to go see Rainbow for one last time.

2010-06-24T16:36:00.001+08:00

there's so much i wanna say.

but all that i can mumble out now is

I LOVE YOU

Rest in peace my dear Rainbow, for no other can replace you in our heart.

2010-06-22T13:54:00.002+08:00

hai.

Savings plans are ways to cheat people of their money.

My BF signed up with Manulife via UOB in 2006. i remember very clearly, we were shown a table of the cash value if the policy were to be terminated.

its been 4 years we have been paying w/o fail each month, and from the table, we should be seeing 14k. and 25 years later, we should be looking at 50k.

Today we called to ask Manulife if we could terminated the policy and get the cash value for our wedding. He calculated and said 'your cash value is 800+'

WTF.

So i made him calculate the cash value after 25 years. and after holding the line for so long, he told me, 'it will be around 22k'

WTF.

end of 25 years, we are going to fork out 16k+ and to only get back 22k?! only 6k more!

this kind of savings plan always have this kind of hidden terms. fuck. pui.

its this kind of fucking experience that makes my blood boil. you knw the cheated feeling?

FUCK MANULIFE AND FUCK UOB.

Manulife is at fault too. Because they didnt train their UOB staff well enough.

Now how? continue to fucking plan lah.

and cannot get married.

this, i blame manulife.

PISSED OFF MAXIMUM.

2010-06-18T15:01:00.002+08:00

Lunch time was spend talking.

From marriage to pregnancy to delivery to having a kid to mahjong to gambling to drinking to stupid friends who is cheapskate to going overseas to chinese new year to parents who nag to filial piety to cousins who are unfilial to siblings who are unfilial to animals to

My infamous life story

Everyone has their own family problems. But its those problems who makes us stronger and makes us a better person.

Its because we have suffered that we have become what we are today.

Those spoilt kids should go through half of what i've been through and soon they will appreciate whatever they are having.

ok, back to work. baahh....

2010-06-17T17:20:00.004+08:00

Another post for the day.

I've never actually ranted this out before because i thought that it really should be none of my business but, my sister gave me permission to share this story, also hoping this will inspire my BFF.

WARNING. alot of vulgarity ahead. (And maybe some biasness)

my sister and this fucker has been together for 5 years plus. my sister did so much for him, even styled him to look nicer and more presentable. but what has the fucker done for my sister? just buy lots of different games stuff and give to my sis, but its so that he can play it too. CHEAPO.

5 years and no marriage plans? Knew smth would go wrong.

My sister went to a malaysia trip and came back finding movie tickets to some atas cinema. (CHEAP to my sister, not cheap to other girls. what an ass)

so she asked him about it. and he said :

"There is nothing going on... Nothing between the two of us... I needed to buy a new phone and headphone becoz mine's spoiled already... So i asked her to go with me... Thats my only off day and i need that phone urgently... You are not around wat... Anyway, The show is I want to watch one... It's an anime show... I'm calling to tell you don't think of stupid things... There is nothing between us..."

So my sister called me and told me about it. I called that fella of course. i was very calm. i said

"Dont lie to me. u tell me now, is there a 3rd party?'

He kept insisting that there isnt.

BUT

there's this SLUT involved.

(the best thing for their scandal is, their work place is just opposite each other!)

What a liar right? i gave him a chance to tell me the truth before i find out. and this is what pissed me off.

The SLUT is a slutty OLD woman, with one child and HAS A BOYFRIEND.

my sister's bf cheat on her and this slut cheat on her own bf.

my sister is baffled. in what way she's not better compared to that bitch?

I would say my sister lost in the following :

-sis dont know how to be a bitch

-sis dont know how to gain sympathy

-sis doesnt have a kid

-sis doesnt know how to ACT CUTE

-sis's not a SLUT.

-sis's too guai

-sis's TOO NICE

too bad sis, the final score,

SLUT : YOU

5 : 2

YOU LOSE.

I saw that girl. its not like she's a 'to-die-for' kinda girl

- NOT hot (in any fucking way. dont understand why guys wanna fuck her?)

- so old already still tie 2 ponytails to act cute

(http://www.karnival-house.co.uk/acatalog/info_BQ128573.html)

- not sexy

- short

- no boobs

- fucking UGLY.

- worst, she has a kid. 2nd hand goods also want?! wa lau eh.

(my sis first hand dont want, want second hand. old, dirty, spoilt, and cheap)

not that my sister is sibeh chio that kind, but at least my sister is pleasant to look at.

but anyway, that guy also sibeh ugly. face is chuiz one.

ok, but the main point is, MY SISTER IS STRONG

pui to the bastard and the bitch, because now my sis is damn happily in love with her real MR RIGHT.

She had to go through alot before she managed to pick herself up. From being homeless to facing the wrath of families.

She's strong. (so TAKE THAT! JERK)

p/s : the slut and the blind man is currently ENGAGED.

what a joke. i'll be laughing the LOUDEST when they break off. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

opps, laughed a bit early... hehe

Updated:

After thinking for a night, i wanna thank that SLUT. Thanks for taking away the ugly jerk off my sister's hand and make him your burden. If you never came into the picture, my sister wouldnt be happy right now. maybe still be MISERABLE with that bastard.

2010-06-17T11:29:00.002+08:00

Oh yea,

its my dearest BF and my 57th month-niversary today.

it was 4 years and 9 months ago's today that was the special day, a day i would never forget and

a day i would never regret.

Happy 4 years and 9 months my dearest ANDY.

I Love you and thank you for everything that you have done for me.

i may act stupid and make you angry but its your never ending patience and love for me that affirms, no matter how stupid i may act or how angry you may get, our love is real.

that's whats most important.

you're what most important to me right now.

Thanks.

2010-06-17T10:50:00.003+08:00

This is for a friend of mine. I hope it can inspire her to be strong again and to have faith in love.

I've had quite a number of boyfriends. but i have only truly loved 3 guys in my past. obviously 2 of them hurt me badly and because of them i'm happily attached.

My first love was in Secondary 2 (AES). (some of you may thing that im too young to know what is love, but heck, i loved and i loved hard. obviously, i fell hard too). I was class mate with him for 1 year plus, only that one fine day smth hit me and i realised that i had this feeling for him. I waited for 8 months before i actually confessed. I liked him for 8 months. that i remember clearly. i tried to get close to him, being his good friend. but it seems to be that he was wooing one of my good friend. I was upset, i was angry, but i didnt show it. after 8 long months of seeing him flirt around with other girls etc, i broke down and confessed. So, he returned his feelings and we both got together. It was tough, i was trying to impress him, and his elder sister was in the same school as we were, (makes it even harder). we were like this cute couple who seats together in class etc etc.

Then i was in this school talent show where i totally humiliated myself, and he couldnt stand me and wanted to break off with me. i remember, we met at CCK, he told me it was over and he left. i took the bus home myself and i was crying at the back seat. the last seat. i was crying so hard, everyone's looking at me.

i kinda literally begged him to take me back. so he gave me another chance and we started all over. it was all good and the holidays came. I had to move house to Yishun, but i was so willing to go to school at bukit timah just to be with him. My dad and sister wanted me to transfer school. but i refused to. i wanted to still be in the same school with him.

i invited him up to my new home, and we'd watch DVDs.

and suddenly one fine day, he broke up with me. i was so fucked up that period of time. to be honest, i was soooooo heartbroken, my mind has automatically blocked out all memories from the day he broke up with me.

i had no idea why, i had no idea where, how, when. i only vaguely remember that it was around the december holidays.

and because i had no face to face him, so i demanded to transfer school.

I still had to go back to my old school for about 2 weeks? and i heard that he is chasing another girl. woah i was so emotionally unstable that i wanted to die. LITERALLY.

up to today, i have NO memories of my 1-2 weeks in my old school, NO memories of him breaking up with me. Its like a missing piece between december to january. (i was even in a class photo that i have no idea i took)

so i've transferred. i was still hurting. but of cause i act like nothing has ever happened. that's where i met my current BFFs.

2nd love. was from NSS. I think i was in the end of secondary 3?? i got to knw this guy who was in trouble. and seeked my help. but unfortunately his case didnt go well. i remember that i have skipped school and stayed at my friend's house until it was nearer to the time of the hearing. i took his dad's cab to the court and was shaking when i was seated there. As soon as i see him, my tears started flowing. it was a room filled with emotions. his family is there, his sister is crying, i was crying, his dad is keeping his tears in. His friends were all waiting outside. i remember the tension in the room, when the judge passed out his sentence, woah mixed feeling, anger, sadness, frustration etc. mostly anger at the judge and the person who caused him to be there. i burst into tears as soon as he stood up. i could feel the pain in my heart. the pain that was even worst when i broke up with my bf (as above) He requested to speak to his sister, and the judge approved. oooh, i was PISSED. why dont wanna speak to me! i tot he was playing me luh. i went out of the court and CRIED like mad women. u can ask all his friends. how was my emotions and expressions that day.

i went back and continued crying. and for the next few days my eyes were still swollen and red. Fang was the one who's always there for me.

i remember visiting him, with his sis, i was acting strong and all but as soon as i left the place, i was crying like mad women.

waited for him for 6 months plus, i think. and soon, the feeling seems to fade away. i didnt seem to receive his letters as much, and so i thought the fading feelings were mutual.

OH his friends and family were PISSED OFF when i said that im not gonna wait any longer. but in my mind i thought that 'i've already waited for so long, and he hurt me so much in the beginning, he owes me that much'

and so, the relationship ended.

but although the heart aches and pain, i believed everything happened for a reason.

if i never got together with my bf in AES,

he wouldnt have hurt me and i

wouldnt have transferred, and

wouldnt have known my bf in NSS, and

wouldnt get so close to Fang, and

wouldnt have knwn Fang's friend and

wouldnt be intro-ed to Andy, and

wouldnt be happy right now.

I have found my Mr Right and we are happily together for coming 5 years. This love is so special and so strong, i was happy to have gone through the broken hearts to get to this love.

And from the past i learn to appreciate my BF more and to love him with all that i have.

Everything is linked to another and that's why i strongly believe that things happens for a reason.

I hope my friend would pick herself up and have more faith, its not the end of the world. its gonna be hard, i'd know.

but you have to drop everything and start over again.

Jiayou bah, my bestie.

2010-06-17T10:20:00.001+08:00

Chanced upon the below :

FIFA World Cup 2010 Champions - A mathematical Prediction

Here is an interesting mathematics regarding the prediction of the FIFA World Cup 2010.

1978 + 1986 = 3964
1978 WC winner = Argentina
1986 WC winner = Argentina

1974 + 1990 = 3964
1974 WC winner = Germany
1990 WC winner = Germany

1970 + 1994 = 3964
1970 WC winner = Brazil
1994 WC Winner = Brazil

1962 + 2002 = 3964
1962 WC winner = Brazil
2002 WC winner = Brazil

1954 + 2010 = 3964
1954 WC winner = Germany
2010 WC winner = ???

(http://www.sgshoot.com/forums/showthread.php?p=64192#post64192)

Really? Germany?? =DDD

2010-06-17T09:13:00.002+08:00

Dinner last night with BFFs at Plaza Sing KFC, walked around and then Fang had ice cream at Swensens.

During ice cream time, we started talking about humanity. How humans kill other beings not for survival but for the excitement and materialistic gain.

It is shown on discovery channel times and again, how a predator kill their prey. They kill the prey with one bite at the neck. Even they know what is compassion.

I despise how human has evolved into. All the cruelty, all the suffering, all the killings.

If we kill for survival, like how we eat meat, thats alright.

But have you watched the video of animals being skinned ALIVE ?

Have you watched out people cut off the shark's fin and slit their throat, throw them back into the sea and let them drown?

Have you watched how people poison dogs to make their country more beautiful?

Have you watched how people can hold a kitten and step on their head in the next minute?

For those who thinks animals are inferior, obviously you havent watched it.

Im an animal lover. Nature lover. Earth has a balance to be maintained. But how can it be maintained with all the evolutions, all the sick people in this world, all the fucked up habits.

Whew. all my rantings are out, on to the next topic.

Watched Spain vs Switzerland match yesterday @ Harry's with dearest BF, Jenny+bf and Fang+Hubby.

Spain isnnf476290$&^8udwsj5^#$uxdisnVGYe4d528jiox&*$^&!!!!!!!!!

We were all rooting for Spain. but....... a HUGE disappointment.

FINISHED

0Spain

Spain

1Switzerland

Switzerland

Gelson Fernandes (51')

(http://g.sg.sports.yahoo.com/football/world-cup/fixtures/spain-v-switzerland-16.html)

Irritating.

Super sleepy now. and i have lots of work to do. Please let today to go smoothly easily. =D

2010-06-16T14:28:00.002+08:00

i have work to do, but im just not in the mood to do any work. =(

dinner with the babes today.

Orchard having some flash floods. HAHA. no shopping~~

2010-06-15T09:19:00.002+08:00

today is just not my day! i woke up at 6am this morning cuz my 'da yi ma' came. I didnt wanna go back to sleep, cuz i know i'll be super tired when its time to wake up.

so dearest bf and i went down for breakfast.

being super early, we chat and relax abit unti labout 7.50am.

den dearest send me to work. halfway started drizzling.

and den Rained HEAVILY.

I am totally drenched lor.

Top, bottom, undergarments. All drench.

Now, my tummy's aching, back's aching, cold, wet and sleepy.

URG.

2010-06-14T16:13:00.002+08:00

Dearest bf and I finally decided on our plans. Decision is one thing, doing it is another.

Will we be able to do it?

Time to really start cutting my expenditure and start saving money for the future!

I am counting down to payday, because now im broke.

2010-06-14T14:13:00.001+08:00

Out of breath soon if i continue in this race.

2010-06-13T13:19:00.002+08:00

Attended Ming Hui's wedding dinner last night with dearest bf @ Novotel. The bride looks absolutely stunning.

I brought my pro camera along. but forgot my memory card. -.- so clever lor.

today's Sunday and tomorrow is back to work. but im not utilizing my Sunday very well. I woke up at 9.30am, waiting for bf to come home from work, but he only comes back at 12pm. lunch and now he's snoring. wth.

angry uh. Its sunday~ Hello??? and im at home doing NOTHING. except blogging. and going onto facebook. I do that everyday. dont have to continue on a sunday. -.-

angry.

2010-06-11T12:56:00.002+08:00

I woke up feeling cheery and happy, though sleepy, but still light-hearted.

While i was brushing my teeth, i looked out the window and saw a clear blue sky and told myself 'what a wonderful day'

As i walked along the corridor, i hear birds chirping, and i felt fresh and smiled.

When i reached my office, i sat down and felt ready to work.

blink blink blink and time flew by.

something happened, make me wanna cry.

go to lunch, start complaining,

come back to office, feel so sleepy.

no mood to work.

no longer the happy day i thought today would be.

2010-06-10T10:34:00.002+08:00

Prince of Persia last night after dinner with dearest =D (recommended by Fang)

In the fantasy adventure, Gyllenhaal will play Dastan, a young prince in sixth century Persia who must join forces with Tamina (Arterton), a feisty and exotic princess, to prevent a villainous nobleman from possessing the Sands of Time, a gift from the gods that can reverse time and allow its possessor to rule the world.

(http://persia.moviechronicles.com/2008-05/jake-gyllenhaal-cast-as-prince-arterton-as-tamina/)

I would say i enjoy the movie, but not a very memorable one. The plot was alright, the actions were alright, the graphic was alright, but the cast, hot. Though seeing Jake Gyllenhaal in spartan costume was abit weird at first, and acting like he's 20+ years old, but its still acceptable after awhile..

But i thought if the glass breaks, Armageddon would be the result?

I woke up early today. 6.45pm. I didnt sleep well last night, but am still feeling very energetic and positive. Dont know why? Maybe something good is going to happen?? =P

Im hoping! (maybe more orders!!)

2010-06-09T10:34:00.002+08:00

bahhh.... problems at work.. =(

please please give me luck!!

I have a date today. hhahaa with my dearest. looking forward to it like as if im a small kid.

Movie + dinner. =D

Though im totally broke. Bought 70+bucks worth of vitamins from GNC. =/

kinda regret, but i still believe health is still more important than money.

2010-06-07T13:48:00.002+08:00

Photoshoot yesterday was a great disappointment. Dressed up and put on my makeup and heels only to find out that there is no way to enter OCH. i went to all its entry point ok! all the ulu ulu entry points also all sealed up. totally no way to get in. i wanted to climb over the fence, but there was cameras everywhere! Massive disappointment. managed to take a few shots from the exterior. but it was no fun. =(

I was reeeeaallly looking forward to yesterday. but turns out a massive disappointment.

SIGH.

2010-06-06T10:24:00.003+08:00

going out going out!!! YAY. but i havent finish my work. =( have to chiong finish it soon!!

mini shoot later on.. my bff Fang wanted to be my MUA. but i dont want la. feel so paiseh to ask her to do my make up den watch me there while she does nothing. i wanted a pair shoot with her!! but i remembered that i have no car for transport. =(

OCH! looks like going to rain. scary....

2010-06-03T10:39:00.002+08:00

you know how it feels like to see your friends hurting inside but there's nothing you can do?

you know how it feels like to know your friend has been crying everyday but there's nothing you can say?

its worrisome, frustrating, anxious and just plain sad.

2 of my besties are heart broken. but there is nothing i can do to help mend their broken heart.

i can only pray and hope they see outside of their emotions and understand that life has to go on.

Jiayou bah you both!

Im looking forward to SUNDAY! Another mini photoshoot. =P OCH. scary uh. i keep thinking of ... erm u know what luh.

2010-06-02T11:05:00.002+08:00

Dinner with dearest Jen last night. Wasnt an extravagant dinner, wasnt a chill-out session, but a very down to earth meet up. =D

Lots of talking. =))

but no pictures taken. -.-

i'll be super busy with work this few days, so not time to blog much. for your entertainment, go to my Facebook for pictures which i just uploaded yesterday.

wish me luck and give me all the energy i need to last through these few days!

2010-05-31T13:16:00.002+08:00

i forgot my phone today. feel so handicapped.

feel so sleepy at work. slept only at 2.30am last night. All thanks to my dearest Max. and my pig boyfriend who slept throughout the commotion.

i was having some trouble sleeping last night cuz i kept thinking about my work and how i wish its another holiday. and when i finally was drifting off to sleep,

Max started calling out for me. He was gnawing on the metal bars of the cage. I thought i was dreaming at first, den the noise starts getting louder. I was thinking to myself 'you've got to be kidding me.'

Before the noise wakes everyone else up, i quickly got up and went to see what did he want. He wants me to feed him water. -.-''

After when he had his sip of water, Max still did not want to sleep. running around and round til i carried him and put him in my arms to coax him to sleep.

He slept soundly in my arms. so i placed him back to the cage.

As soon i put him down, his tantrums started. Jumping about the cage, making noise.

BAAAHHH. and so i had to carry him again until he falls asleep.

woke up at 7.15am this morning. SUPER sleepy. YAWNSSS.

i've got sooooooooo many photos to upload!! but its taking so long in facebook, i dont know how long its gonna be in blogger.

2010-05-30T22:27:00.003+08:00

am suppose to criticize Long John Silver's Chicken. but i totally forgot.

Hahah..

About LJS meals. I have been having it since Secondary 3. from $3.50/meal, the price have been increasing gradually throughout the years and their chicken has been getting smaller and smaller. i could order a 3 piece chicken meal but the size of 3 piece of chicken fillet can equal to a 2 piece fillet.

SO TINY. smaller than an average sized d**k.
(no offense)

so i decided to boycott LJS.
I'd rather have Mcdonalds for lunch and dinner everyday then to have one meal of unsatisfied LJS. *angry*

friday is a PH. but was spent working at home as usual. lots of work left undone. wanted to catch up during the weekends, but i had no mood for it.

Saturday, had a great afternoon nap on my dearest's lap. zzZzZzz

And today! had lots lots lots of fun PHOTOSHOOT!
not exactly a photoshoot, but i was the center of the attention of the day. =D

Photos up soon! =)))

Not ready to go back to work just yet, wanna play and have fun.
But not choice. Tomorrow is Monday. baahhhh!